You're a voice that never sings, is what I say.
I just received a long phone call from an old friend. It was a surprising call, really, cause we haven't been keeping contact with each other for awhile even though it's only four hours drive away from here. He's a good friend and we've been friends for like ten years, but even though we haven't been talking properly for the last two years due to difficulty in time management and distance problem, I still found it an easy task to ease back into a familiar camaraderie talking to him on the phone. He's a good friend like that.
Anyway, before I received that call, I also just got back from attending a wedding of my friend from uni and I met lots of my friends from back then there. It was great to be able to see and talk to them again. I just reminded of how much I miss them. I really hope I could spend more time with them like we used to do before, but I don't see that happening in the near future. Each of us are too busy dealing with our own lives and the distance that separates us doesn't help it much better really.
Distance makes the heart grows fonder, some people say. For me, I guess it's not as black and white as that. For one thing, distance has kept lots of people apart from those who once closed to them. It breaks the emotional and psychological ties. It severes the communication link, for one thing. And when two people or more, haven't seen each other for quite some time.... well, it's only natural that everything feels quite odd when they meet/talk again in the later time.
Time changes and shapes people up and that's that. We can't expect people to still stay the same, cause that wouldn't be the human thing to do, of course. We flow with our lives and in exchange it adds new colors and textures to our personalities. And that's great, wonderful even, cause we grow wiser by the minute. (I hope)
So, yes, distance could make hearts go cold. Unresposive to each other for lack of what once there similarities and understandings of each other.
But, I believe... sincerely so... That the best thing about human, is that they could overcome everything if only they want to. Even emotional barrier caused by generation gap, hurting past, or emotional/physical distance.
Well, that's it for now, I'm dead tired and I still have some re-drafting work to do. *stares at the pile of papers and curses the concept of ADR*
refined,
seemingly otherworldly,
...that you can't helped it but,
wanting,
needing,
craving,
...to break it.
To the point of unrecognizable. Cause then you would have the excuse to step up to him and asked him,
implored,
ordered,
...implored.
'--to make it better.'
'Cause you are everything I'm not
I honestly thought I'd never post in here again. But, hey, what do you know, what with LJ being all Confused (and I'm saying it in the nicest form of word here) and Blogger efficiently block me from accessing my account with its silly new Google-account policy (I do have a google account, it's just for some reason Blogger wouldn't let me access it with that account. *cue the horrible teeth-gnashing here*), I find myself winding back here to unload a little thought or two... Or three. Depending on my mood here...
So... Looks like everybody has deserted this place huh? Haha, yeah, well, it's to be expected. And, for some reason I just realize something. I think, in a very antisocial way that would be frowned upon by some people I know, and be cherished on by the other half of the room, I find it strangely comforting writing to no reader at all.
No expectation. No constant performing.
I find I can be a little more honest with myself in that situation.
Tbc in another entry, if the brain and mood allowed it...
As of Juni, 2005, this blog is on a hiatus of unknown length. Everything that's up will stay up, but nothing new will be added. When I do start writing again I'll be posting something in here, but until then I'm very sorry that I'll have to leave this blog unattended.
I want to say thank you very much to all the good friends that I've met through this blog and blogword.
I really appreciate all your friendships. I have gained lots of wonderful experience and read profound thoughts during my stay in the blogworld and I'm thanking you all for those memorable things and memories. Hope you all continue to write more and have a great time in blogworld as well as in real life always.
Take care, you all. 


